Thursday, August 7, 2008

Like breathing out and breathing in

One thing I've been wondering about is my prayer life. I think I've started to fall into praying when I want something, begging God and then adding in the "Will Clause", you know, the whole "only if it's Your will thing" but knowing you're gonna be mad if it doesn't happen to be in God's plan. So, over the next few days, I'm gonna study about praying. Paul says in Romans we are to "continue steadfastly in prayer" (Rom 12:12), and Jesus has a parable about how "men should not lose heart in prayer."

But how? How am I to know God is always there listening to every demand I make of Him? How can I change from making demands to sincerely seeking His will for my life? I'm going to be looking for answers to these questions and more. It should make for an interesting weekend.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

And so it ends...

Well, this past Friday was my last day with CEF. I have a lot of mixed feelings about it...I'm glad I can get back into a real job, with a steady paycheck, but I'm really gonna miss hanging out with the kids everyday. But I have officially decided that this was the best job in the world, and I'm going to try to do it again next summer. I was able to pray through the salvation prayer with 5 little girls who knew exactly what they were doing, and had incredible questions that I didn't even think about at that age. I definitely got more out of this summer than any of the kids I taught, and I've never felt more in tune with what God has planned for my life. I still have a long way to go, but I think I'm getting more and more on the path God set for me.

Now I just need a job. A real job. A full-time job. If anyone knows of ANYTHING, please let me know. I can't live off CVS, so when I return to Wake Forest I will be job hunting. I'm not taking any classes this semester, so I'll be able to fully devote my time to any job. Please keep me in your prayers for this, I have a lot of financial issues that need to be settled, and CEF and CVS just can't quite cut it.

But more importantly, pray that I can keep on the path that I'm on right now. I'm starting to begin to almost start to maybe almost understand exactly what it means to have God at the center of my life, and I'm hopefully beginning to change for the better. I've already made several hard changes in my life, I'm hoping I can continue that. And, now that CEF is over, I can go back to my studies in being a man of God instead of figuring out how to childrenize the NT stories. So hopefully, more posts for Matthew. That's all I got for today, God bless and thanks!